Life Update: 2022 Thus Far

I understand I have only made two posts as a opposed to four this month, however, life has been moving extremely quickly for me latley. Today’s post will be a life update, looking back on the progress and strides I’ve made just this year, because a lot has happened.

At the beginning of the new year, I was excited and hopeful for the next twelve months. I had plans to move to Tennessee and it seemed like some unfinished business was coming to a close. I was ready to begin the next chapter in my journey. I had gotten into an accident and it totaled my car in November so I had no car. I didn’t have any interviews lined up yet so I had no job in Tennessee. I had some money saved but I had no plan. I was just hopeful that things would string together in the end. I took a trip with my grandma and stayed with my aunt and uncle to see Tennessee in the middle of January, I loved it. So I came back and got to work. By the ending of January I had a car, multiple interviews lined up and a plan.

February rolls around and I drive down in the first weekend, just missing an ice storm in New England. I was so excited. I would have left the last weekend in January, however there was a travel ban due to a blizzard. I interviewed with about ten jobs, got offers from six of them and took the best option for me. I needed to tie up the loose ends at my previous job and then took a much needed break to drive down to Florida to visit my best friends for a weekend. I honestly had so much fun! They’re always a blast to be around! When I got back I started my first day at my new job.

As I stepped into March I had so many goals and plans in mind for my future, what I wanted it to look like, where I wanted to be, how quickly I wanted to get there, etc. But then I met a boy. I had no plans in getting distracted but things seemed to slowed down when it came to my life. I wasn’t worried about all of my plans and goals, I was just happy, living in the moment. It was nice. If I could have pressed pause right there, I would have. Things were finally going well.

Flying into April I was happy, had a sense of peace and I completely lost sight of my previous goals, well, for the time being. This boy I had started dating in March said he had other goals in mind for his life and I will not be apart of them. I was hurt. I realized our priorities were different and maybe I need to reevaluate mine. I had my little poor me day and then got to work. What did I want? Who did I want to be? What steps did I need to take to get there? I started by making a list, what qualities did I want to work on and have? What are some things I liked to do? Where did I want to be in a year? I then leapt out of my comfort zone and dove head first into my new goals. I went to shows and places I wanted to see alone. Which was scary and awkward at first but I’m so glad I did it. I became motivated enough to go to the gym five to six times a week. I started taking an online class in something I was previously going to school for. I began this blog, which I would have never done in Rhode Island but I love this new hobby! I became more confident and outgoing, ready to take on the unknown. I look back at my time with that boy. Although it was short, I was happy, and when it ended, sure it sucked, but it catapulted me into a new beginning for myself. It refocused me and made me look at my priorities and goals under a microscope. For that, I’m grateful, however I didn’t appreciate getting hurt in the process haha.

Here comes May, the month I had dreaded, the month I had to face some unfinished business back in Rhode Island. The main reason I couldn’t be there anymore. I grew stressed and unfocused, I could feel my depression creeping up on me but I didn’t allow it to take over. I was losing sleep and I was in a constant state of worry. I stopped doing my online courses and hadn’t posted on my blog. However, I did continue to workout. I felt as though it relieved some of the pressure. I made it back to Rhode Island, suffered through it, and it didn’t go my way. I was surprised, I was confused, I was devastated. I had the support of my family to help me through and it helped tremendously. I learned that sometimes you don’t get the closure you deserve. Sometimes you don’t get the answers you’re looking for. Sometimes things don’t go your way. When I received a specific call, my mom was present. She hugged me and then I went for a ride. I thought long and hard on that ride. I decided that I was ok, I fought long and hard and for that I am strong. This wasn’t going to break me. I’ve already begun building the life I want, the life I deserve for myself. I left so I could do that. I left so I can have that. So why let things out of my control destroy that? I visited my grandma and got out the rest of my tears, I then came to accept it, said some final goodbyes and flew back to Tennessee, my new home. I got back Saturday the twenty-first, got back to work on Sunday the twenty-second and began to refocus on my goals. In the week I’ve been back, I’ve started my online course and blog back up, I found myself the perfect little apartment and I tested positive for COVID, giving me the break I need in quarantine to recharge and prepare for June.

All in all it’s been an amazing five months. We aren’t even half way through this year and I’ve already learned more lessons and have grown more as a person this year than the twenty-four years I’ve spent in Rhode Island. I don’t regret or hate anything that I’ve gone through. I actually appreciate them more than most people would have, which sounds a bit odd. However, I wouldn’t be where I am today without everything happening the way it did. I would not be the person I am today. I love who I am. I’d say I’m the most confident and self assured version of myself than I have ever been. For that, I’m grateful for all of the ups and downs. It’s taken a lot to pull myself out at times, but I did it. I made it out the other side. So I will end this by saying be proud of where you started, be confident in your decisions and never let anyone bring you or your progress down, no matter how slow moving or difficult it is. Take pride in your journey, no one has to go through it besides you.